Second Quarter Stormer

a mental maelstrom of thoughts

[ball-a-bing, and stuff i missed]

ouch... my ring finger hurts.

but it's better that way, i guess. this week proved its worth for my erstwhile "leave" (not a total one because, well, i still do certain stuff at the office).

i rediscovered how it feels to be "solar-powered," playing basketball underneath scorcho-sun and playing on "auto-crossover" pavement. uhm, there goes the ouchy ring finger that ensued from a bad ball-tap. not new, anyone who played ball might have had this. good thing its not my ankle. so much for playing ball, i guess.

but hey, i REALLY missed being with the people back home. one even called me the "prodigal one" teee-heehh. and there were secret stories they told me i missed since my absence. a freebie there was a haircut. not that i badly needed one (or so i thought i didn't need one) but my cousin wasn't doing anything at the time. besides, i was pestering him with it, and for a hairdye too wehehe.. (oops, did i made a lie in this sentence again? not badly needing one, yet i pestered my cuz? come on wehehe..)

i rediscovered biking too. the lengthiest i've gone was when i pedalled from our home to libis, then at the office (just to get dirty stuff i left there) then home. maybe i should pedal more.

but the most endearing sight i got was that of kids playing with their kites. looking at them while their cheapy fliers flutter underneath a clear sky, i remember the times when i was carefree, and i was flying... and during those moments, i just smiled underneath a bright happy sun.

*nods* i will enjoy the rest of the coming weeks. yes, there were things i know i missed when i left the halfway house down roxas district. but then again, we all have to move on and find what makes us (as well as other people) happy. i found mine back home, even though miniscule. and yes, im beginning to feel ok. then and there will i make a comeback. as that nickelback song said, "someday i will, i'll gonna make it all right but not right now" wehehe.

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[i hate this feeling]

was it always like this. just when i was really feeling so ok with myself, i find myself getting depressed over, uhm... sheesh, an attraction. or maybe that attraction became more than just that.

i hate this. my gullibility always leads me nowhere. i don't want to be the scapegoat.

i need a break. yet again.

[edit / 0422]

made this day as a "pass-a-note-i-know-you're-ok-now-so-then-i'm-gone" day.

i decided to take a break from my usual work load. i have been so depressed (read: the upper extremes of ennui) and at the same time distracted (see above) that it have affected any creativity left of me. even the new look of our paper's website seem too cluttered out at the seams (as far as i am concerned) because of this. haha, goodness of goodness, all i did was basically copy-paste old elements and tweak the CSS code. others than that, walang ka-effort-effort.

*shakes head* i just hope this doesn't stretch through the one month i asked from our managing editor. besides, we had an agreement. just one month, maybe less. use it to let me heal myself (lick the wounds?), then i'll get back to my usual rakenroll self. as for now, i'll find my way of being happy. this summer vacation is my worst, and it sucks big time. yup, my usual angst, you might say. nothing new here. but then again, i guess i deserve this break, for whatever reason i can think and people can think of (yes, the reasons i wrote here included).

so, a vacation for me then.

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[may bangs!!! part3]

[the weekend]
so ok, i DID managed to take a hike this weekend, courtesy of a good chum who invited me to her place down mexico pampanga. spend the whole sweltering weekend there. and, with another friend, we managed to go to... uhm, guess we just went in circles.

anyway, friday was roadtrip day. was it not for the lack of money (as well as an alibi) we could have gone straight to baguio and spend the night there. haha. all for booze. so there are your usual stops at gasoline stations, and some quick trips over their convenience stores... when something caught my eye.

looking from behind the glass door, was not just one, but two "banged red horse"!!! *insert rad-x's tulo-laway face here* but since it was stingingly hot, and the beer just might get lost in a fizz and evaporate, i ddecidedd not to take the bottles home. so there. a roadtrip to fontana, clark.. then fell asleep. only to realize i need a quick perk me up at a starbuko site in... eep!!! TARLAC???

[same bottle, different name]
friend (let's call her sugar from here on) took me along with her family at a kin reunion of sorts. she let me get the acquaintance of her brood (all guys.. afraaaiiid!!!) and had a bottle of, of course, the red ride. curious as we are, we checked the bottle. the regular horse. till she asked her cousin if he knows anything about a "different horse."

enough said. that was the time we came to know "the banged one" is hailed as the "happy horse" this side of Luzon.

now, there's the grin on the face of that horse. haha

[late night spuriosity]
ok, we took the friday's trip with a wind-up at a certain gas station where a bottle or two is legal. there. more banged ones staring from behind the store's glass shelf. we gladly took 'em all, with the other customers wondering why we have to sift through the whole stock like we were searching for your usual chiz curls prize. but of course we were. three bottles. two stallions and a 500ml bottle of "the banged ones" was all that we had. if the mucho one could've sported the same...

and we ended up in sugar's pad, half drunk yes, but weren't able to down a giraffe of a grand matador....

so, was wine ever relegated last holy weekend? NAAAAH!!!! better to be drunk than to whine in some corner... DUST AWAY UNWANTED THOUGHTS AND GET THE MOST OUT OF LIFE!!! wehe

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[games for the net geek]

sheesh. summer. boring pc taking its toll and craving for the beach? well, you can do that. but your pc definitely can contribute to the fun.

to suggest things, look up for these net games.

was i ever hooked up on this net puzzle game called, uh... godtower. contents are still unbeaten, (the game is loaded with 99 levels of brain-moshing decoding), one needs to go to certain programs (i.e., word, etc) or search the page itself to find clues to decode a picture to move on to another level. fun, while it lasts (i am stuck/stumped at level 23).

this site too can lead you to different games. found it while i was looking for spoilers for godtower. a plus for the site? he got the original prince of persia in his links! and yes, there is this really annoying game called notpron where you must figure out things for you to go to the next level. much more like godtower, almost equally as annoying.

so there. there's an alternative to the beach after all. and if you still wanted to hit the beach... uhm, do so. remember just two things. don't forget your beach-outing accessories and stuff-stuff. and don't go craving or searching for netcafes while under the sun/sea. =)

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[may bangs!!! part 2]

sa naghahanap ng proof nung first part nitong seryeng [may bangs!!!] (potek, magiging serye???) eto na. all along i thought that going around in circles in cyberspace will lead me to an image of the "banged one" bottle. well, goodness, wala. except for this one that the gang snapped and saved in our hard drive...

ayuuuun naman pala eh... may difference nga sa back print! yup, that "banged one" was the only one the waiter got from thier freezer. next time, i'll make sure i'll get the front label here.

wait just one minute... i did used the term "banged one" right? OMG!!!

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